Sunday, April 14, 2024

This Material World

 This Material World

Seems so flat and sharp.

Things are hard here.

(Especially when one runs into something by mistake.)

(The leg still hurts. Ow.)


We seem to be stuck in this condition. 

Materially speaking. 

With only one way out 

Which is love. 


The Spiritual Journey. 

Is the one we are all on. 

It has many permutations 

Twists and turns 


Blind alleys and dead ends 

But we keep going 

Because we have tasted 

The chocolate 


The one the mystics speak of 

And we are greedy. 

We want more of that 

And more. And more. ❤️



Thursday, March 18, 2021

Oh Computers

 oh computers ...

I am not so afraid of you now 

--having said that, I try never to rely on you too much--

either .


I'm still the sort who feels that 

"if they want my money 

they can send me a bill".

 


My friend, who does all things 

automatically, 

is constantly 

on the phone with tech support and reloading and redoing 

and totally freaking out 

about it 


No 


I desire as much freedom from freaking out 

as I can possibly afford 


but losing some of the fear of it is a good thing 

it's amazing how far we've come 

and how dependent we have become -

and everyone says well just google it, 

just fax that, just copy to a pdf and 

spin it up into the air and just try and get the printer 

to recognize the computer -

oh silly human

that just ain't gonna happen


and when the day comes 

that they begin to repair each other 

and begin to improve upon our design 

and begin to build themselves even better 

will they think of us, silly humans, as unnecessary appendages, 

partners on the path?,

or something like fleas 

which need 

to be gotten rid of ...








Wednesday, March 17, 2021

Welcome Back

 looking back 

and forward again 

getting older

but somehow stronger 

closer 

yes closer

to what it means to be here 

human, vulnerable, 

     all of that 


connected to 

some greater source 

of being, becoming 

we see more now 

     what's important 

and we know now 

so much more about 

     what we want


Welcome back.

Wednesday, March 28, 2018



On utube starting
Unicorn TV 123

  
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Sunday, December 4, 2016

Free Speech

Why do they hate him so
When he just wants
To help us
Be safe -
Be prosperous?

I am aghast
People who,
To my knowledge, never,
Ever, spoke
About politics before
Are now so adamant
That
One cannot say
Anything
At all

I have to remember not
To speak
Or they may never speak to
Me
Again

It's bizarre
What have we become
That we cannot speak
Are not allowed
An opinion ?

Those who say
Free speech is a good thing
Now
Allow
No one
To say
Anything
At all 

Thursday, October 6, 2016

Just Sayin'

Along the lines of 
Overreaching people -
Over-arching egos -
We now have 
The
"Tango Teacher" 

I have never met one 
Who understood this dance 
But how could they ? 
They don't know you -
And how sweet you are 
Within the music 
Within the song 
As it plays 
As it sways 
And the embrace 

They worry and fiddle 
With steps and contortions 
While we enter into 
The tango cloud 
And float around. 

It may be a case of 
More knowledge ruining 
Something -
Like zen 
- only don't know -
And you will know more 
Than those who 
Think they know 

Thursday, September 29, 2016

-chill-

Notate:

Looking somewhere
For a little 
Peace 

Something to 
Remind me of 
The fact that 
We all die 
We all cry 
And 
Not to get too 
Upset about it 

A "friend" 
Tells me and tells me 
What 
She would 
Have me do 

Take the chill pill 
Now 
Not later 
Don't, for 
God's sake, 
Let me interrupt 
Your train 
Of thought 

Your chain 
Around everyone's neck 
That all must do 
As you would have them 
Do 

Lighten up -
I
Thank you for your 
Advise 
But 
Not for the delivery 
Style 

Next time 
( and I'm sure there will 
Be one )
What 
Shall I do ? 

Breath deeply, 
Smile sweetly, 
Ask a question back
Which I know - Ms. 
Know it all -
Won't know the answer to. 

Maybe an experiment 
Could be 
Made 
Along those lines 
Not to be unkind 
But yes -
In self defense 

We shall see -
I'll get back to you 
     On that 



Wednesday, August 24, 2016

Oh Phone -

Oh phone 
In my pocket 
Why 
Have you not yet 
Spoken ?
Why do you remain 
Mute ?

You are adequately 
Charged -
And yet you do not 
Ring !

What am I to believe? 
That he does not think 
Of me -
That he is sufficient 
Unto himself 
As if 
A boat 
Tossed upon 
An assure sea -

Oh me 
Oh my -
What am I 
In high school? 

We are senior citizens 
Here -
Facing 
Imminently 
Our own 
Demise 

Dancing on the deck of the 
Sinking Titanic 
Comes to mind 

Do we never learn ?
Do I never learn ?
To become so Zen that 
The cessation of existence 
Is merely a philosophical 
Question ?

Oh but the Zen Masters never 
Knew 
Such a one 
As 
You -

If they had 
Their Haiku would have been 
All about 
The strength and the 
Character 
And the kindness 
Of you -

Forget about 
The grasshoppers 
And the cherry blossoms 
And the moon ! 

- Still the phone sits 
In 
Deep Meditation 




Monday, August 15, 2016

Waiting

Awaiting the next 
Big adventure -
Whether we want it 
Or not 

Dear friends, 
There is no need 
To be bored 

Boredom should be 
Celebrated 
For in a relatively short 
Space of time 

Something is bound 
To turn 
Up 

Sunday, August 7, 2016

The way the Gods like it.

And I 
Have always wanted 
To die -
And now you may 
Precede me
And show the way -

I did not sign up 
For this 
When I responded to 
Your blue eyes -

My family was always 
Very distant 
And correct 

It is not fair !
It's not fair !

And now I suffer 
The consequences of 
Caring -
And 
I am mad -
As the proverbial, wet 
Hen !

She didn't ask to be 
A hen or 
To be red -
But that 
Is just the way 
It turned out,

They say -

That is life, 
They say -

And we must 
Adjust 
- yeah right -

And there is a way 
To do this all 
Very
Correctly 

Very 
New-agey -

As if I knew -

And 
If I knew -
I would never have been 
There that day 
And begun this 
-Whatever it is-

Journey 

Damn and blast -

-My British ancestors are 
Aghast-
What have I done ?
- gone and violated 
The great edict! of
Not caring 
Of 
Never sharing 
Any bit 
Any part 
Of  
The heart -

They were so 
Right 
One needs must stay 
Uptight !
Stay in 
Whatever closet 
One is in -
Do not come out 
And roam 
About 

For there are the monsters 
Of doubt 
Of hurt of pain 
Of try and try 
     Over and over
     Again 

And 
The worst of it is -
There is 
     No way out !

The way is 
Through -
The center of the 
Storm -
The center 
Of the earth -

It is impossible - !

Just -

The way 
The Gods 

Like it.





Tuesday, August 2, 2016

Turn 'em Off

I like to keep it 
That way 
If I can. 

When the computer gives me 
Trouble 
And the phone has 
Hiccups and 
Coughs 

I turn em 
Off 

I try not to be 
So wound up 
With them 
That I 
Give a damn! 

So I pay bills 
With paper 
Just like 
The old woman 
That I am 

I have an acquaintance 
Who if 
The computer would die 
He would loudly sigh 
And say 
So do I !

Panic time comes when 
The phone is 
Lost 
At what cost ? 
Ok 
So do
I -

But 
If it would truely die 
Would in most ways 
Be relieved

I could again use 
Pen 
And paper 
And stop 
And look around 

What is the wind 
Doing 
Today
Where is the sun 
In the sky 

What is time ?






Add Sense?

And so 
There's an add about 
Exterminators 

Big brother is 
Truely watching. 
Us!!

Thursday, July 28, 2016

Rats

If rats 
Smelled like 
Roses 
We wouldn't really 
Care 
If they were here 
Or they were there 

We wouldn't have to 
Feel 
So guilty 
About 
The elimination 
Of same 

They have the wide world 
To nest in 
But if they prefer to rest
Under the house 
I guess 

Something 

Will 
Have to be 

Done !

What if 
It were destructive behavior 
That 
Brought the karma down 
On your head 

What if 
Y'all could stop 
Such behavior 
And 
"Just get along"?

Maybe then 
The gods of bad luck and 
Retribution 
Would 
Pass you by 

Doesn't seem 
To 100% work that way 
I know 

And a rose 
By any other name 
Would smell as sweet 

And a rat 
If you called it an angel 
Would still be 
An unwelcome
Guest 

Wednesday, July 27, 2016

Brunch

Brunch 
Just could be 
The favorite meal 
Of the day -
For me 
It is neither here
Nor there 
Betwixt and 
Between 
So early that 
One can't worry 
Too much 
So late that 
There is no excuse 
For it 
The ladies who brunch 
That's us 
But only if 
We happen to be 
Up 
And perchance not 
Working 
Today 

A good time 
To talk about 
Boys 
No matter how old 
We 
Happen to be 
The mystery remains 
Why oh why do they do 
What they do 
???
Wtf
Times 
Infinity!!!
And, oddly enough, 
Aghast, forsooth, 
We still love them just 
As they are 
God help us 
God save us 
We are in it (life)
Until the bitter end 
Or sweet,
If the gods are smiling 
On us,
And so we transition just -
As it is meant 
To be 
But he -
Will probably go 
Before me 
And leave me free 
But so alone 
How can this cruel fate 
Be mine 
To exist 
For a time 
Without him 

Monday, July 25, 2016

Suspicion

A visit from 
An old friend 
Brings up 
Memories 
Of 
What I could have 
Done -
Better 
Or worse 
Or 
Not at all 

Boundaries
And 
Freedom 

One must have 
Some of 
Each 

Can't be skatin'
All over 
     The place 
Must have 
A solid center 
Some confidence 
And direction 

Question is -
Where does one go 
To get those ?
Is there a store -
The Walmart of those -

Can we buy 
     Online 
And wait with curious 
     Anticipation 
For delivery 

Knowing 
All the while 
That the bill will be coming 
In the mail 
And 
We will surely 
Have to pay 

With interest and 
Penalties
Undoubtedly 

But - 
To end on a higher 
Note 

I search 
My brain . . .

I have at least learned 
to be 
Suspicious of 
The " karma delivery guy" 
-ask questions 
- take notes 
- and keep a file 
On everything 

So now I have 
Too many files -

But ending on a 
"higher note"
Must include the fact 
That 
I have at least 
Developed 
Some 
Suspicion 
Of worldly promises 
And omissions 



Monday, July 11, 2016

C'est La Vie !

I could be depressed about 
This . . . 

Snipers are shooting 
Police 
In America! 
( wtf?)

My favorite Dr. doesn't take 
Medicare 
(Which I was so happy to get)
And I need that Dr. right now !


Near and far -

Breathe -
They say 
Deeply - and that will help -
Think about positive things 
Give thanks for what is 
Good 

Practice some meditation 

Don't just wait till retreats 
In beautiful places 
Dredge up some fortitude 
And dive deep 
Through the negativity
And the amazement 
At people who act 
The way they do 

I have decided that 
"Old age is not 
For sissies" 
And I'd better get 
Some 
Toughness up -
Some 
C'est la vie -
Some less belief -
In ego mind 
And body