Sweet Suicide/Drowning in Honey

Sweet Suicide 

     -then this longing 

          for you 

Would be done 

     -One bullet 

          more or less 

          to the head 

Would kill the heart 

          as well 

Then this longing 

     for you 

     would be done 

This crazy love gone-

Things back to normal 

     again 

(but I'd be dead)

I hate you 

     for causing 

          This pain 

This heart writhing slowly 

     in its 

          opening 

I hate you for being 

     close to me 

For allowing 

     this love 

     to build 

Yell at me 

     shove me 

          away 

Do not say 

     such sweet things 

     as you do 

If you open 

     another damned 

          door 

     for me- 

I will scream 

I will fall 

     at your feet 

     and wail 

What black magic 

     is this 

     What Svengali

What Sorcerer's 

     Apprentice

are you?

To take this lonely 

     freedom 

and trap it 

and tame it 

I rebel 

I will not be caught 

    in this velvet net 

    I will resist it 

To drown in honey 

was not part 

     of my plan 

Damn you-

I cannot 

     run 

(and I wouldn't miss 

this - for the world)