Friday, October 12, 2012

ego-maniac

there in the stillness
of the forest and the trees
and the meditation
shrine...

I fall down between
my thoughts and dreams
I get to a place where
I want to be
forever

no mind
no problem

the zen friends
say

why it takes so much doing
to un-do

is a mystery...

The mind needs an
     off switch
-and a manual

-the emotions too-

They drive me
crazy
-on any usual day

maybe now they will
     fall in line
maybe now
     learn quietness
maybe now
     learn to stay
     in the now

they laugh...
they let me be
for a little while

with a tantalizing
taste
of freedom
of space

beatific  
buddha's face

retreating

here I am
retreating from my life
(being very spiritual)
and remembering all the things
I forgot
to bring.

this truth
becomes
"self-evident"
when I go to brush my teeth
and there is
     -no brush
I go to charge my phone
     -and there is no chord

there is one last
-last minute package
sitting at home
put right in the place
-where I won't forget  it

I wish there were
someone
to blame
someone else
who forgot it
maybe "the cat"
made away with it

but
I must
admit
as I sit
cross legged
in the wilderness
That
I
have done it again

and no one else
can be blamed
for it

karma
meets
all timers