The Gods laugh" 
So -
I must be a major 
Source of amusement 
     For them. 
Hopefully I'll get some credit 
For this . . . 
I had planned to be much more rich,
     Healthy, and beautiful 
Than this 
Or 
Dead by now 
Depending on what sort 
Of day it is 
Wondering "what the heck" 
Is wrong with this 
Picture 
Knowing there are people 
In war torn countries 
And I am happy I'm not -
But
Still there is this yearning 
This unsettled way of wanting 
Something more 
Something 
Spiritual . . .
Eventhough I know how to 
Go there 
It takes doing 
"There in lies the rub"