sometimes

sometimes
it seems like we get lost
at least
I do
I forget what's important
and am too upset
over little things
upset
driven crazy
not knowing what to do

why

did this life
not come with an
instruction booklet
something that would
say
which button to push
and when
to push it
which
setting to set
and how to set it

but
then
it would probably have been
a bad translation
like those pieces of furniture
I have endeavored to put together
tab A going here
and B is lost somewhere
under the couch
and the cat is sitting on the directions
and the dog ran away with the spoon
it's been that kind of a day
it's been that kind of a life
and I am not apologizing
anymore-
past caring-
doing my best
going to be 60
yea gads!

let's go watch the news
that'll help

a book

yesterday
i sat
in the cyber cafe
reading a book
an old book
at that

I felt
old
i am old
but more than that
everyone around me was
working on expensive machines
this book cost $.50 at a garage sale
my latte cost more than my book
not only old
but cheap

and proud of it 

today

Today has been
just
one of those
days...
lack of inspiration
flat-
dead-

but, I remind myself that,
things "could be worse"
could be
a lot worse

I remember
to remind myself
to count my blessings
to give thanks
for the basics
the food, the clothing, the shelter
the fact that i live in a country which
tries to give women their rights and privileges
-which does not dictate what we wear-

we can wear jeans - for instance -
    fit for all occasions
    old jeans for gardening
    newer ones for daily wear
    cut-offs, calf length for beach walking

I should be so lucky to live in this country
--near the beach
I am ashamed to complain
about less than perfect weather
in January

zen flowers

just trying this new thing
blogging
writing
for other people to maybe see

in the dead of winter
a few flowers are still trying ...
braving the biting winds
and bitter cold

relatively speaking

this is,
after all,
south california