Tuesday, November 11, 2014

Tango Tonight

They seek to instruct 
They say
     It must be 
     This way 
Only 

That's what I love
About this dance 
It doesn't care what
     They 
     Say

It 
Goes its own 
Way 

Twists and turns 
In complete rebellion to
Any sort of controlling
Thing 
Or idea of

They will try to 
     Tame it 
To
     Train it 
And it will 
Laugh and dance 
Away from 
Them

In this I take 
Heart 
In this I find 
Consolation 

A pure form of
Rebellion 
Except that it
Wants nothing 
From anyone 

It wants only
To be itself
And to include us
Within it 

Saturday, November 1, 2014

Rain 2

It rained 
And it rained
And it rained
Last night

Couldn't sleep -
Lay awake listening 
To the miraculous 
Sound
Of buckets and buckets
And buckets -
Coming down 

This morning 
     I walked around -
Marveling at mother natures 
Sprinkler power -
No need to set these timers 
Or haul the hose around 
- Now if she would just do this every week -
On cue 

But -

Probably not -

She 
Likes to 
Surprise us -

Sometimes 
Too much so -
Sometimes washing people 
Away -

But today 
All is glistening and 
Clean 
Fluffy white clouds blow over -
Chased by a friendly breeze

The hills will begin 
To green -
The mountain streams
Will pour willingly
Down 
Looking even more beautiful 
When contrasted with -
The long 
Hot 
Summer. 




Friday, October 31, 2014

Rain

Halloween party
And it rains 
We feel the first drops -
Unbelieving 

It's been so long 
Since water has fallen from 
The sky 
Reservoirs are 
Half down 

What will life be like 
With less water -
Already lawns 
Are left to brown -

Maybe life in south 
California 
Would become 
Not so much like 
Hollywood would 
     Have us
     Believe 
But more like
It actually is -

More like 
The Padres and 
     The Indians
Perceived -
More like 
Dust and 
Sky -
Hawks
And seagulls
Circling

Monday, October 20, 2014

Quiet

Quiet
Maybe I have finally learned 
To be 
Quiet

When they ask of me -
What I want 
-And what they want me 
     To want 
I can shrug and smilingly say 
     What - ever 
I can answer nothing 
     And then be 
Quiet 

Because 
I have learned 
They don't listen 
Anyway 

They want what they want -
They are 
Type A's 

I am only here
Because I'm here 
And 
I don't really care
Either way 

Oh yes 
I should be 
Passionate 
About it !
But 
I'm not -

Sometimes I try 
To care 
But 
I don't -

And I love this 
New way 
Of looking at things 

The lord God made us all -
So let her 
Worry about 
It

Thursday, October 9, 2014

Unintended Consequences

Getting myself 
Out on a limb again 
I always do 

It's this blogging business 
I know 
There will be 
Unintended consequences 

There always are 

Like my friend 
The NASA scientist 
Says

-And they were dealing with 
Space flight -
-And really complicated mathematical 
Things -

It boggles the mind
I can't imagine 

And even they -
With billions of dollars 
Of budgets and things 
had 
unintended consequences 

To contend 
With 

Obviously

Please
Leave me, love 
For then I would know 
What to do 
I can morn I can cry 
I can feel 
Very sorry 
For myself 
That 
I know how to do 
-had a lot 
Of practice 
With it 
Many years 
     To perfect 

But not this 
Not this patience 
This caring 
This sweetness 
How to deal 
With it 
How to 
Be good enough 
For it 
Please, please 
     Go away 
So I don't have to grow 

Don't have to know 
The true pain 
Of eventually 
Being without you 
Through death or some other circumstance 

Circumstances 
     Being what they are 
And seemingly 
Always 
Occurring 

With inexorable 
Crushing karma 

I need another 
Starbucks coffee 
Today 

     obviously. . .

The Train

What can I say 
About today 
?
These days seem to 
Run together
Like a train 

All connected to one 
Another 
But with no 
Conductor 
To tell us when 
We are leaving 
The station. 
Instead we must guess 
And wonder about the 
Departure time 
And the destination 

We are pulled 
By gravity 
Like a Diesel engine 
By time 
By fate 

What can I do 
About that 
How hard should I try 
To try 
Or should I sit back 
And sigh 
The ticket has been 
Purchased 
And we will arrive 
When we 
Arrive