Suspicion

A visit from 

An old friend 

Brings up 

Memories 

Of 

What I could have 

Done -

Better 

Or worse 

Or 

Not at all 

Boundaries

And 

Freedom 

One must have 

Some of 

Each 

Can't be skatin'

All over 

     The place 

Must have 

A solid center 

Some confidence 

And direction 

Question is -

Where does one go 

To get those ?

Is there a store -

The Walmart of those -

Can we buy 

     Online 

And wait with curious 

     Anticipation 

For delivery 

Knowing 

All the while 

That the bill will be coming 

In the mail 

And 

We will surely 

Have to pay 

With interest and 

Penalties

Undoubtedly 

But - 

To end on a higher 

Note 

I search 

My brain . . .

I have at least learned 

to be 

Suspicious of 

The " karma delivery guy" 

-ask questions 

- take notes 

- and keep a file 

On everything 

So now I have 

Too many files -

But ending on a 

"higher note"

Must include the fact 

That 

I have at least 

Developed 

Some 

Suspicion 

Of worldly promises 

And omissions