Friday, May 24, 2013

stalker...

one day
you
yell at me
the next
you dance so nice
I ask you to leave
to go away
this-
is just
a challenge
to you

you must have been
raised
to
really hate
women

but only the ones
you have been
close to

the last girlfriend
left town
to live with a male
relative
somewhere,
far away

yes,
I am afraid...

What to do
Who to turn to

If everything is a lesson
this is a big one-
     to
     stand up for
     myself...

If i turn up dead
We'll know
     who to blame-

small solace
small comfort

for
i know
     this is just
     the beginning...

but-
one of my new-favorite
     dance partners
used to be a Marine
---think about that!
 

Friday, May 17, 2013

Dear Mr. Charming,




Dear Mr Charming,
     You are late!

I have been
     waiting-
So very long...

I was told
     long ago
That you are
     coming-
Mr Walt Disney
     Said So
And
     He
          Wouldn't lie

He had
     everything
So together-
     So wonderfully
          done

Small scale buildings
     neatly trimmed trees
A robotic
     Mr Lincoln
And Indian canoes

-but always
     there is
a poison
     apple-
A rogue hippo
     on the Jungle Ride

-long lines
     in the
     hot sun
Maybe you got
     stuck
     in one of those

The Matterhorn
     I remember
was something of
     an investment
     in time-
for a very short
     ride

So Mr Charming-
     I await
your
     arrival

I never give
     up
on these things
(very possibly,
     maybe, to my
     detriment)

I believe
     in charmingness
and Princes,
     magic crowns,
-Castles in the
     clouds-

People would
     tell me
     not to

But I am busy
     waiting-
Waiting,
     for you

don't bother me
     with logic
or with
     worldly cares

Don't bother me
     I'm waiting-

for I
     am
a Princess
here   !!!!

Garden Notes; Bucket List




     
Today I love
     getting old 
So much undone
     that I will never do... 

The bucket list 
     has a hole in it 

The bucket leaks... 

I am not able-
     can't afford-
And beginning to see 
     the difference between- 
ideas 
     and 
          reality- 

Ideas are 
     much trouble...
Reality- 
     takes care 
          of itself

As in 
     the garden 
Where butterflies fly 
     and robins-
          hop -among the 
               mint-

-I still pull 
     the occasional 
          weed- 

And water 
     some- 

But overall, 
     it does 
          what 
                it wants 

And it's
     better 
That 
     way 

The bucket
     belongs 
In that sort of 
     garden 

-Useful 
     even with 
a hole 
     in it- 

No more lists- 
     if lists 
          can be avoided 

As long as we include 
      God- 

And put her 
     at the top 
     of the list 

Well--
     that is 
          the trick  


     

Friday, April 19, 2013

boston marathon bombing

A God of love
     and responsibility-
How important
     this is
To the Fabric
     of Society
and Society-
     How important
     this is
To our lives

Our dedication
     to the ideals
Is all that
     separates us
-all that
     saves us
From the Chaos

It comes from within-
     from the hearts
     of us all
Without it
     we are lost
We need to remind
     ourselves-
We need to
     give thanks
We need to
     renew our vows-
     our dedication
to the ideal
     of compassion
     and honor 

Monday, April 8, 2013

Dear Mr. Kim,

Dear Mr. Kim,

Please don't drop
     Atom Bombs
          on me

I don't follow
     the news
          closely
But they say
     you are
          upset
     About
          something...

You see
     I grew up
     during the cold war
And the Russians
     Supposedly
Wanted to drop
     Atom Bombs
     on me

I never knew
     what we did
          to deserve it
But I'm sure
     there was
          something-
To be very upset
     about

It's not so much
     for me I plead
But think of all
     the trees
     and butterflies
     and children
          and such
     Who will be
          turned
     to glass
     and dust

I have been surprised
     for a long time
That we
     are still alive-
That the Atom Bombs
     of the 50's
     didn't drop

I remember mom
     putting canned goods
     and blankets
     in the hall closet
So we could survive
     in the hallway
(I never figured out
how that was
actually going
to work)

at grade school
they had us file
     neatly into the hallway
and crouch in
     the corners
I still remember the
     look of the
     grey tiles - close up

It was cool
     and quiet
in the hallway -
A welcome break
and something different
     to do

The next year
     we were taught to
     scramble under
     our wooden desks
     (the desks still had a hole for
     an ink well - the wood stained blue
     with ancient use)

The next year
we were told to just
put our heads down
and not to look at
     the bright flash
so our eyes wouldn't
melt

The next year
there were no more
drills
I suppose they had
     figured out
What we kids
     already knew
     No amount of hallway
          or wooden desk
     Would do much
          good...

A friend whose family
     had more money
     built a bomb shelter...

I don''t know
     if this affected
my childhood
     but
I have always had
     an endearing
     sense of
     fatalism...

So Dear Mr Kim
Please remember
     that your friend Dennis
Would be injured too
     and basketball
     would be shut down-
Lots of people
     and their pets
Would be melted into
     glass
          and dust



And Butterflies
    
     would

          cry

Common Cold; notes

4/8/13
1:01 AM!

if the day 
     ever comes, 
When we are 
     allowed to ask 
-really deep questions 
     -and get a straight 
          answer 
One of my first questions will be...

Why germs? 
     Why Viruses and Bacteria?
And why 
     me?
Sneezing and Sniffling 
     and Snorting now 
for days and days 
     not fun/boring!

Goodness knows 
     how much longer 
     this will last 
I have things to do 
Places to go 
I can't Tango 
     and sneeze!

Why did the Gods 
     invent the 
          Common Cold 
(and much worse stuff)

Trapped in these 
     flimsy bodies 
We suffer so 

One night I can sleep 
The next one 
     not 
And I know I am 
     fortunate- 
to only be 
     as sick 
     as I am! 

One day 
     it may be 
much worse 
And then 
     we will
          die...

And through it all 
we are supposed 
     to be 
Upbeat and cheerful 
and accomplish 
     great 
          accomplishments 
          to enhance 
          the collective 
               consciousness 
          of humanity

Oh bother
     where's the kleenex 
     and the vapo-rub
  
I sneeze...

Friday, April 5, 2013

Travels...

travels...
--planning another journey
lots to do...
will this cold be over by then...?
count the days
count the ways

Yosemite
     in the spring
Ah-h-h-h
all that beauty...

---have to do laundry
          Now!
the dryer has been broken
     forever...
and I hate doing laundry...
and it's foggy here
the timing has to be exactly right
or I'm draping damp clothes
     over car seats
-going down the road-

can I afford this?
---I have saved and saved...
gas, goes up and up
...rooms to rent
...food to buy
...heating up the can of soup
     on the hot plate
     on the bathroom floor...
It's sort of like camping
only with
a door

Going on to the retreat
     after that...
Promising myself that this time
     I'll really get enlightened
and I won't gain weight!

No excuse to pig out
just because it is "vacation"
road food, fast food...
things I don't usually allow myself
     to eat
but it's necessary
     on the road
one must "rough it"
we are driving so far
(the car and I)
and drive-throughs
are just meant for a time like
     this ...
(I rationalize)

trying to keep
     all this planning
a secret
from you, dear
because I know you'll
     be so very angry
(I'm delaying the inevitable)
but soon it will become clear,
or I'll slip up and let it slip out,
that once again
I am running away-
going far
and fast
and staying as long
     as I can afford
just for the blessed peace
     and quiet
of being gone

from you, dear

(the x -
who refuses to - x - )