stopping...

just about ready to stop
all this blogging
nonsense

what's the use-
it's made three
cents

"i get no
respect"

never did
never will

ready to eat
worms...

and then I look-
and then I see-
I've broken through
one-thousand hits
-one thousand people
reading
me

!!!
wow

I've never done
that much of
anything...

folks from all over
the world-
1000 of them

and so I am
re-energized
re-inspired

where will this lead?
How much trouble
     will i get in?
Dare i continue?
     can I stop?

like eating peanuts
-sharing thoughts-

kinda scary
maybe the CIA
has me already
     on file...

I'm harmless
     so I think
-but the pen is
     mightier than
     the sword-

poke
poke
I poke at you
with my sword...

awake
awake
value your life
be nice
to yourself
and
others...

we're all
in this together
at least
for now

where we go after that
who is certain

really, really, sure?
really, really, certain?

 

stalker...

one day
you
yell at me
the next
you dance so nice
I ask you to leave
to go away
this-
is just
a challenge
to you

you must have been
raised
to
really hate
women

but only the ones
you have been
close to

the last girlfriend
left town
to live with a male
relative
somewhere,
far away

yes,
I am afraid...

What to do
Who to turn to

If everything is a lesson
this is a big one-
     to
     stand up for
     myself...

If i turn up dead
We'll know
     who to blame-

small solace
small comfort

for
i know
     this is just
     the beginning...

but-
one of my new-favorite
     dance partners
used to be a Marine
---think about that!
 

Dear Mr. Charming,

Dear Mr Charming,
     You are late!

I have been
     waiting-
So very long...

I was told
     long ago
That you are
     coming-
Mr Walt Disney
     Said So
And
     He
          Wouldn't lie

He had
     everything
So together-
     So wonderfully
          done

Small scale buildings
     neatly trimmed trees
A robotic
     Mr Lincoln
And Indian canoes

-but always
     there is
a poison
     apple-
A rogue hippo
     on the Jungle Ride

-long lines
     in the
     hot sun
Maybe you got
     stuck
     in one of those

The Matterhorn
     I remember
was something of
     an investment
     in time-
for a very short
     ride

So Mr Charming-
     I await
your
     arrival

I never give
     up
on these things
(very possibly,
     maybe, to my
     detriment)

I believe
     in charmingness
and Princes,
     magic crowns,
-Castles in the
     clouds-

People would
     tell me
     not to

But I am busy
     waiting-
Waiting,
     for you

don't bother me
     with logic
or with
     worldly cares

Don't bother me
     I'm waiting-

for I
     am
a Princess
here   !!!!

Garden Notes; Bucket List

     

Today I love

     getting old 

So much undone

     that I will never do... 

The bucket list 

     has a hole in it 

The bucket leaks... 

I am not able-

     can't afford-

And beginning to see 

     the difference between- 

ideas 

     and 

          reality- 

Ideas are 

     much trouble...

Reality- 

     takes care 

          of itself

As in 

     the garden 

Where butterflies fly 

     and robins-

          hop -among the 

               mint-

-I still pull 

     the occasional 

          weed- 

And water 

     some- 

But overall, 

     it does 

          what 

                it wants 

And it's

     better 

That 

     way 

The bucket

     belongs 

In that sort of 

     garden 

-Useful 

     even with 

a hole 

     in it- 

No more lists- 

     if lists 

          can be avoided 

As long as we include 

      God- 

And put her 

     at the top 

     of the list 

Well--

     that is 

          the trick  

     

boston marathon bombing

A God of love
     and responsibility-
How important
     this is
To the Fabric
     of Society
and Society-
     How important
     this is
To our lives

Our dedication
     to the ideals
Is all that
     separates us
-all that
     saves us
From the Chaos

It comes from within-
     from the hearts
     of us all
Without it
     we are lost
We need to remind
     ourselves-
We need to
     give thanks
We need to
     renew our vows-
     our dedication
to the ideal
     of compassion
     and honor 

Dear Mr. Kim,

Dear Mr. Kim,

Please don't drop
     Atom Bombs
          on me

I don't follow
     the news
          closely
But they say
     you are
          upset
     About
          something...

You see
     I grew up
     during the cold war
And the Russians
     Supposedly
Wanted to drop
     Atom Bombs
     on me

I never knew
     what we did
          to deserve it
But I'm sure
     there was
          something-
To be very upset
     about

It's not so much
     for me I plead
But think of all
     the trees
     and butterflies
     and children
          and such
     Who will be
          turned
     to glass
     and dust

I have been surprised
     for a long time
That we
     are still alive-
That the Atom Bombs
     of the 50's
     didn't drop

I remember mom
     putting canned goods
     and blankets
     in the hall closet
So we could survive
     in the hallway
(I never figured out
how that was
actually going
to work)

at grade school
they had us file
     neatly into the hallway
and crouch in
     the corners
I still remember the
     look of the
     grey tiles - close up

It was cool
     and quiet
in the hallway -
A welcome break
and something different
     to do

The next year
     we were taught to
     scramble under
     our wooden desks
     (the desks still had a hole for
     an ink well - the wood stained blue
     with ancient use)

The next year
we were told to just
put our heads down
and not to look at
     the bright flash
so our eyes wouldn't
melt

The next year
there were no more
drills
I suppose they had
     figured out
What we kids
     already knew
     No amount of hallway
          or wooden desk
     Would do much
          good...

A friend whose family
     had more money
     built a bomb shelter...

I don''t know
     if this affected
my childhood
     but
I have always had
     an endearing
     sense of
     fatalism...

So Dear Mr Kim
Please remember
     that your friend Dennis
Would be injured too
     and basketball
     would be shut down-
Lots of people
     and their pets
Would be melted into
     glass
          and dust



And Butterflies
    
     would

          cry

Common Cold; notes

4/8/13

1:01 AM!

if the day 

     ever comes, 

When we are 

     allowed to ask 

-really deep questions 

     -and get a straight 

          answer 

One of my first questions will be...

Why germs? 

     Why Viruses and Bacteria?

And why 

     me?

Sneezing and Sniffling 

     and Snorting now 

for days and days 

     not fun/boring!

Goodness knows 

     how much longer 

     this will last 

I have things to do 

Places to go 

I can't Tango 

     and sneeze!

Why did the Gods 

     invent the 

          Common Cold 

(and much worse stuff)

Trapped in these 

     flimsy bodies 

We suffer so 

One night I can sleep 

The next one 

     not 

And I know I am 

     fortunate- 

to only be 

     as sick 

     as I am! 

One day 

     it may be 

much worse 

And then 

     we will

          die...

And through it all 

we are supposed 

     to be 

Upbeat and cheerful 

and accomplish 

     great 

          accomplishments 

          to enhance 

          the collective 

               consciousness 

          of humanity

Oh bother

     where's the kleenex 

     and the vapo-rub

  

I sneeze...